Friday, December 30, 2011

Designing Help Needed!!!!

So we have a huge bedroom, and it's got an addition to it making it a weird shape. I have all this room and am NOT utilizing it.  We don't have much bedroom furniture right now, only a headboard that is too small, two small nightstands, and three dressers that I've had since I was 10.

Needless to say, it's time to get some grown up furniture!!!

Hubby and I are having issues agreeing on the style of bedroom furniture (I want a set that matches- you know, bed, dresser with mirror set and stuff). I'm motivated by not only a good deal, but a matching set that is timeless. Jacob seems to be more motivated by just the price. Not surprising- he is a guy after all! And although I really don't want to spend a fortune on this stuff either I would really like to have a sophisticated, pretty, finished bedroom.

So here's where I need your help! Below are pictures of our bedroom. Our bed is in the back part (the addition) and the whole front room where our bathroom and closets are just have those dressers.
I want to move the bed to the front room, Jacob likes it in the back. There are pluses and minuses to either way-- so what do you all think about the best way to utilize the space?

Decorating/Designing tips welcome!!!!

By the way: are there any good bedroom designing websites out there?

Back part of room- two windows and a skylight make it very bright in the summer!
 One plus- our little tv is mounted on the wall back here-- and when Jacob gets up early he can turn the light on in the front room and get dressed without bothering me too much.
 Front room-- I hate how just the dressers are here and nothing else. (getting rid of these dressers and want a dresser/mirror set)

 Bathroom is to the left when you walk in the room

I'm no good at this.... HELP!!!

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

12 Weeks!

Holy Cow, I've made it to 12 weeks! I just still cannot believe we've made it this far! I'm getting VERY anxious for our doctor appointment this week-- am so ready/nervous about hearing this babies heart beating again. It's been SO hard waiting between appointments, wandering if everything is ok.  A {fast} growing belly now is the only thing that calms me down!

How Far Long? 12 Weeks

Size of Baby? About the size of a Lime

Total Weight Gain? 2 lbs

Maternity Clothes? Nope not yet, although I'm definitely starting to show!

Sleep? Getting better- sleeping for longer periods of time at night now.

Best Moment This Week? Baby getting his/her first Christmas presents. :o)

Food Cravings? The little oranges and chocolate donettes!

What I'm Looking Forward To: Hearing babies heartbeat

Weekly Wisdom:  Force yourself to exercise. I've been HORRIBLE at this and am definitely starting to feel the effects. Hopefully the second trimester energy spurt will kick in soon so I can get back on track!

Milestones: Baby's fingers will soon begin to open and close, his or her toes will curl, his eye muscles will clench, and his mouth will make sucking movements. In fact, if you prod your abdomen, your baby will squirm in response, although you won't be able to feel it. I love that!

Emotions: Have started having some mood swings. (or so my husband says) :o)
I suppose my "tolerance" or "patience" has faded some... I seem to have no such time for people being stupid or adding non-needed stress. Kicked the wall when Jacob put a frozen turkey in my bathtub to thaw out. ?!?  Although stayed surprisingly calm when I walked in to see two huge piles of puked up grease on my light carpet from the dog....

Symptoms: Still tired most of the time, although it's gotten slightly better. Back pain on and off.

I haven't taken my 12 week photo yet but I'll do that this week sometime! Here's some from last week!

                 11 Weeks                                                                                        11 Weeks, 4 Days

Friday, December 23, 2011

Marriage Edition!

Marriage Edition: Random Conversations In The Morning

Scene Setting: Cuddling in bed this morning after his 6 am workout
Jacob: "My armpits smell."
Me: No response. Eye's closed.
Jacob: (exclaiming all the sudden) "That's why you're cuddling with me! My pheromones!"
Me: "I don't smell you."
Jacob: "It's your brain. It smells them and then tells you you'd better get close to me."

And below are some pictures of us "trying" to get a good shot for a Christmas card this year. Hahaha!

Have a Merry Christmas Everyone!

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Dealing with Infertility

"Infertile." Such a nasty word. A word I lived with for almost 3 years up until (almost) 11 weeks ago.  I know there's still a lot of my friends and blog followers out there that are still dealing with this. I told myself that when my time came, I wouldnt "forget" what it was like, I wouldn't forget the road we traveled, I wouldn't forget the pain I suffered so that I would be able to look back and truly appreciate the gift I've been given. So that I could offer up hope, healing, and support to those who are suffering through the same trials I have been through.

So I thought I would give a little advice to those of you who are still waiting, still in the process of IUI's, IVF's, drugs, shots, and all that other crap we have to go through. Here it goes:

1. Don't live for next week, next month, next cycle... enjoy life now:
I did this for quite some time. Tracking my temperature every morning, using the daily ovulation kits, doing the baby dance on the "right days'... it can consume your life. It wasn't until this past February that I started to live for other things. And it still really didn't get perfected until late summer. Planning trips (lots of them this year!), parties, fun things to keep me busy, was a HUGE help. It gave me something else to look forward to and focus on. Plus, I got to spend a great deal of quality one on one time with my husband.

2. Write out a plan:
It stinks to walk through the infertility process of not knowing month by month. But what made it a little easier on us was that we had a plan. We knew that we would give each different procedure x amount of time before we moved on to the next. Whether that be moving on from IUI to IVF, or moving to a different clinic or doctor, or moving onto adoption, it helps to know that you have options and you will be a mama someday no matter what avenue you go through.  I researched each option and knew that if we did IVF we would go "here"; if we did decide on adoption, we would use "this" agency. I even contacted the adoption agency for info and a contact person. It just helped put my mind at ease.

3. Surround yourself with support:
I had a great support system. My friends and family were very supportive and I was open and honest about our process and how I was feeling about things.  Keeping your emotions inside only makes things worse. (for me anyway) You also need a good support system of those in the same situation as you, or those who have been in the same situation. I had a few friends and family who had gone through infertility, and I follow a lot of blogs dealing with infertility. Seeing the success stories gave me hope and courage to continue on, and knowing I was not alone out there was a big help too.

4. Save Money:
We started saving about a year into the process. We realized it was taking longer than expected, and was costing way more than we thought. Building up a savings gave us the ability to continue on with our plan, and also gave us the option of having other options such as IVF and adoption.

5. Pray:
Of course, there is only so much we can do on our own when trying to get pregnant. Ultimately it is up to God when the time is right. I did a LOT of praying. Ok, probably a lot of begging too. But a couple months before I got pregnant I started changing the way I prayed. Instead of telling God how mad I was all the time and asking him why, I started THANKING Him for the position He put us in. Thanking Him for strengthening me through these trials. Thanking Him for giving Jacob and I such a wonderful life and marriage, for giving us a great year filled with so many fun trips and blessings, and for 6 wonderful years together with just the two of us. It was such a good feeling to thank and praise instead of beg and plead. There is a time for both yes, but taking the focus off ourselves is a good thing.

Infertility never leaves you. It will always be a part of you. I still find myself crying during worship at church- both for being so thankful, so scared, and hurting for those who are still on their journey;  being scared and anxious of all the "what if's"... but I know it has definitely made me a stronger person. Our marriage is stronger. We are more prepared. It was God's perfect timing, in his perfect plan, and we are still leaning and trusting on Him to help get us all the way through this pregnancy.

I hope and pray that some of you will find this uplifting and hope-giving. Know that I do know where you are right now. I feel your pain, your frustrations, your sorrow, your hopelessness. But also know that someday- you WILL come out of it. It may not be as soon as you want it to, or even how you wanted it to, but God is faithful and He has a perfect plan for you.