Wait

 Wait: A Poem

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried:
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the Master so gently said, "Child, you must wait."

"Wait, you say, wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is Your hand shortened? Or have You not heard?
By faith, I have asked, and am claiming your Word.
My future and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance, and YOU tell me to WAIT?

I'm needing a "yes", a go-ahead sign,
Or even a "no" to which I can resign.
And Lord, You promised that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry,
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!"

The quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, "You must wait."

So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So I'm waiting . . . for what?"

And He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.
All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want, But you wouldn't know Me.

"You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint;
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint;
You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there;
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence were all you could see.

"You'd never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You'd know that I give and I save . . . for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My Heart.

"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked
Of an infinite God, who makes what you have last.

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that 'My Grace is sufficient for thee.'
Yes, your dreams for your loved one overnight would come true,
But, Oh the Loss! If I lost what I'm doing in you!

"So be silent, My Child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.
And though oft' may My answers seem terribly late,
my most precious answer of all is still, 'Wait.'"


-Author Unknown

 

 

Here I am... waiting. But I'm surprisingly ok with it this time. Yes, it would be nice to have a YES or NO answer but God is CLEARLY telling me to WAIT.

I started the first of my Lupron shots today.

 

 

 I'll take this shot once a month for six months. I am excited to not have a period for that long! Lupron will stop everything--ovulation, regular cycling,etc. No cramps, no tampons, no food cravings... yes! Although I have heard that this shot will likely give you hot flashes. Guess I'll have the AC on a lot this summer! Hopefully this will allow my body to heal up enough and get my baby making parts in prime shape. :o)  The one BIG drawback of this drug is the cost. It's almost $400 per shot. Ouch. That hurts. I don't think we'll be buying another car...or much of anything anytime soon!

Here's what I do know though. In my waiting I am {trusting} in the Lord. I'm {choosing} to be joyful. I'm {giving}my finances to Him. I'm {living}life to the fullest.  I'm {searching}for more of Him.

 

God is faithful. 

 

His plan is perfect. 

I am resting in His peace.