Blog Award!

Carlia over at The Stork Drop Zone awarded me the "tell me about yourself award!" Thanks Carlia! It's my first blog award and it put a huge smile on my face! I've been following Carlia for over a year now and she's getting close to holding her little one in her arms soon! I love her blog! Go over and check it out!

Now onto the award: I tell you 7 things about myself you may not already know, and then I pass it onto a few other bloggers!

1.  I have bunions on my feet. (i'm sure I can hear snickering from some of you who know this!) Haha. Yep. Tried to fix them as a child, but it's no use. It's genetic and since they dont really bother me too much I just deal with it. I did get one of those yoga toes thingy's and I sometimes use it to stretch out my feet when they're achy.

2.  I wake up early morning EVERY morning in the winter and look outside to see if it snowed. It rarely does. And I'm so disappointed every single time. But on those days it does snow, I'm in complete heaven!

3.  I have a fear of driving long distances by myself. I just flat out wont do it.

4.  My tailbone pops out of place regularly. That's going to be lovely later on in pregnancy...

5.  As soon as I grow my hair out long, I immediately want to cut it. Which is where I'm at now. Long, short? Long, short? Ugh, it's such a hard decision!

6.  I sleep much better in the mountains, in our cozy little trailer. I'm not a good sleeper anywhere else. Don't know what it is about the fresh mountain air and that little bed, but I sleep like a baby! Maybe I need to haul the trailer into our driveway and sleep in it so I can actually get a full nights sleep!

7.  I once knocked myself out by jumping OVER a horse off of a hay bail. Yeah... miscalculated that distance by a bit.

Now...enough about me! I want to hear from:

Whitney @ Joyful Ambiguity

Tricia @ Wattenburgers

Mandy @ Grace Like Rain

Amy @ A Southern Love

10 Weeks!

Can't believe I've made it to 10 weeks! I feel so blessed to have made it this far and can't wait to get out of the first trimester! Thank you Jesus for this precious baby!


How Far Long? 10 Weeks

Size of Baby?  Kumquat -- Go HERE if you don't know what a kumquat is!

Total Weight Gain? I haven't weighed myself lately so not sure

Maternity Clothes? Nope not yet.

Sleep? Still not sleeping well even though I'm exhausted all the time.  Either I can't get comfortable with my back or I'm waking up every two hours, or I have to pee. 4 am seems to be my daily wake up call. Ugh.

Best Moment This Week? Just making it through another week!

Food Cravings? Fruit cups.  Breakfast sandwiches in the morning.

What I'm Looking Forward To: Hearing the babies heartbeat again in a couple weeks!

Weekly Wisdom: Sleep when you can.

Milestones: Baby has completed the most critical part of the developmental period! Vital organs are in place and are now starting to make red blood cells and rapidly develop. Crazy!

Emotions: Pretty even keel most of the time. Still nervous. Want to hear the heartbeat everyday for reassurance! Bawled watching "One Born Every Minute" during an episode where a young woman gave her twins up for adoption to a couple who had been trying to have a child for 13 years. It was a beautiful, heartbreaking, inspiring thing to watch.

Symptoms: Random moments of nausea. Tiredness. Stretching feeling of the uterus at times.

 

(Excuse the messy mirror! This was taken in the bathroom my husband uses daily. haha!

Honey... time to clean your bathroom!)

9 Weeks

Ok so technically today is 9 weeks, 5 days.  :o)

I haven't been doing weekly pregnancy posts and I dont want to forget how I'm feeling every week so I thought I would start now!

Week 4-5: Didn't know I was pregnant yet! I started to feel tired around week 5 and I thought I had a sinus infection.

Week 6: Extremely tired. Nauseous and not eating much. Got the positive test at 6 weeks 2 days.

Week 7:Exhausted. Nervous out of my mind! Completely emotional. Lost weight due to not eating much. Still nauseous. Peeing more at night. Low back pain.

Week 8: Still tired. Eating slightly better. Nausea pretty much gone. Back pain off and on. Sore boobs. Spotting/bleeding at 8 weeks 5 days.

Now onto Week 9:

How far along? 9 weeks
Size of baby? Prune
Total Weight Gain? Lost a couple pounds
Maternity clothes? Nope
Sleep? Sleeping ok. Back hurts at times so I'm using a pillow between the legs. Getting up between 1-3 times at night to pee. haha!
Best moment this week? Finally telling everyone we're pregnant!
Food cravings? No real cravings. Pizza always sounds good though and so does fruit and 7Up.
What I miss? Not a thing.
What I'm looking forward to? Actually feeling this baby move and "feeling pregnant". I dont like the waiting between appointments! I want affirmation of this pregnancy like everyday! :)
Weekly Wisdom: Try to stay calm and stress free and trust God has it under control.
Milestones: Baby actually looks like a baby in the ultrasound!
Emotions: All over the place. Mostly excited but extremely nervous too!
Symptoms: Tender boobs, back ache off and on, slightly nauseous if I dont eat.

Where Have I Been?!

I have been M.I.A. for a few weeks! I plan on getting my blogging back on track soon though. The holidays are in full force and things have been super busy around here.

Anyway, back to where I've been hiding. Well.... I have been hiding on my couch. And in my bed. The first of November I started feeling a little sick. Then by the week before Thanksgiving.  I thought I had the flu. I was sleeping all the time, I was nauseous, I could barely eat.  Thanksgiving week I was supposed to take a pregnancy test so I could start the medicine to kick my periods back into cycle so we could start trying again.  I felt so weird I decided to take one the Thursday before Thanksgiving.  And guess what?

SURPRISE!!!! I'm PREGNANT!!!

Within seconds that second line appeared... and shock set in. Of course after having SO many BFN (Big Fat Negatives) and after a miscarriage, it takes awhile to set in. Oh, and there's that little fact that my periods had NEVER returned. We were on NO medicine. No IUI's. No NOTHING! How is that even possible I thought?

Jacob was out of town so I immediately called my doctor and asked them what I should do. They sent me in for blood work and a progesterone check.  I had to wait until the next morning for them to get the results and call me back. The nurse called and said your levels are great! Come see us in two weeks! Holy Freaking Crap. I told Jacob when he got home and he was sooo excited. He of course said, "I knew it! I knew you were! You never sleep that much!" :o)

The next two weeks were torturous. Along with the elation of being pregnant looms the threat of miscarrying again. The thought of "what if's." I was an emotional basket case.  I cried in Denny's one morning after church telling Jacob I thought that there was nothing in here! (my belly). He rolled his eyes and said "Want to know how I know your pregnant? Because your crying in Denny's right now."
Haha!

December 2nd we had our first doctor's appointment and ultrasound.  I was so nervous, but our little guy popped up on the screen right away and we could see the heartbeat, hear the heartbeat, even see his little limbs moving around! I was measuring at 8 weeks 2 days then!!!

Today I am 9 weeks pregnant. :o)

We did have a scare Sunday with bleeding and went in for an ultrasound to check on things but baby looked ok.  I'm trying to take it easy as much as possible right now, although it's been challenging with all the stuff at work and home with Christmas parties and guests and decorating.

So {prayers} for a continued healthy and growing baby would be MUCH appreciated!

And thank you to everyone out there who has been following our blog, rooting for us, and praying for us. This little baby is a TRUE miracle from God.  It's perfect timing. We are so very blessed.

"I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of Him." 1 Samuel 1:27

Starting All Over

Today I had my appointment with the new doctor.

I had mixed feelings about it today. But I think I'm at peace with it now.

1. I LOVE the clinic. Everyone was super efficient (nice change of pace), very friendly (hallelujah), and FAST (praise the Lord)!

2. I like the new doctor. He is very friendly, warm, and caring.

3. The nurse is anal about "time management" in the office. (I told her about how I had to wait hours to see Dr.O and she flipped out. haha!)

I guess I was more nervous going into it than I thought. I haven't had to really worry about TTC since before my surgery in April so the pressure has been off.

I have a cold so I wasnt feeling my best today, and when I got there they informed me that Dr. O's office had STILL not faxed over my records, which I have been working on getting for a couple weeks. I actually told them yesterday I NEED these faxed today because my appointment is tomorrow. Do you think they can do that simple task? Nope. I called while in the waiting room and of course they made up some excuse and didn't fax them over until AFTER my appointment was done. So I was a little on edge anyways when the appt started, then I had to try and remember everything we've done so I could tell the new doctor and I was just a mess. 

My new Dr. (Dr. V) listened and we thinks that we do NOT need to do the IUI's.  This is what really confused me and sort of sent me over the edge. I don't understand why the heck we were doing IUI's in the first place (other than Dr.O said I was killing off the sperm due to a Post Coital test, but Dr. V insists that this test is outdated and inaccurate and endometriosis is the cause of my infertility).

SO... new game plan... in two weeks we start up my cycle, assuming it doesnt start on its own, which it probably wont-- then we start clomid and hcg trigger shot and try naturally.  Jacob was thrilled about this and really feels good about the new doctor, clinic, and plan.  I was just so overwhelmed and confused and emotional about starting ALL over again I couldnt really do anything but cry everytime I tried to talk about it. I guess we've been doing things so differently and seemingly "aggressively" with Dr.O that this seems like going WAY back to the drawing board, trying naturally. Almost like, there's no possible way that will work. I just dont think I can handle going through all of this for another year again. I feel like this is not the aggressive avenue. Those are just my fears coming out.

But, at the same time, God has a plan. He knows what He's doing. I'm here in this place, in this new clinic, and moving forward with this new plan for a reason. I need to let go of my fear. That's really what the emotions are all about. Fear of the "what ifs". Fear of failure. Fear of losing time, losing money, losing hope... 

And then I read this: {From Max Lucado}

"Why are you fearful, O you of little faith? --Matthew 8:26


For all the noise fear makes and room it takes, fear does little good. Fear never wrote a symphony, or poem, negotiated a peace treaty, or cured a disease. Fear never saved a marriage or a business. Courage did that. Faith did that. People who refused to consult or cower to their timidities did that.


Jesus takes our fears seriously. The one statement He made more than any other was this: don't be afraid.  "Do not be afraid. You are worth much more than many sparrows." (Matt. 10:31) "Do not fear, little flock, for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom." (Luke 12:32)


Jesus is asking me, asking all of us, "Why are you afraid?"  And honestly... why are we?

Funny Dog Videos

These two YouTube videos have entertained me quite a bit lately.  

They're still so funny to me, even after about 10th time I've watched them so I thought I would share.

{ENJOY}

"Denver The Guilty Dog"

"Talking Dog"

Blessings List

{Still} Continuing my Blessings List....


191. A husband that sticks up for me
192. 5 dollar footlongs at Subway (with chipotle southwest sauce!)
193. A dear friend staying over
194. Lunch at Taste of Thai
195. The new iPhone in the mail!
196. Pheasant hunting with family
197. Elk Camp
198. The beauty of the first snow!
199. Marketside Fresh Garden Salsa from Walmart...to die for!
200. Guacamole Fresca
201. Families coming together for meals
202. Families & friends camping together
203. Laughter that makes you cry
204. Walks with Whit & Honey (those are some of my favorite parts of the week Whit!) :o)
205. Schwann's Man delivery (I LOVE their chicken cordon blue & their frozen veggie mixes!)
206. Hot drinks in the now very chilly weather!
207. Advocare Cleanse-- I'll post on this later!
208. News of a friends court date to FINALLY get their baby girl in Ethiopia! {Yay Angela!}
209. Preparing for holiday parties
210. Sneaking a Christmas song or two...
211. Pulling kids on the sled, even if there's barely any snow on the ground!
212. Space heaters